“Hey, I have changed!”

change-gifI was reading a few old blogs from myself where in I walked a process with the animals. Here I have written pretty much about how I ignored life in a point at a crucial moment and how I did not accept that anymore from/as myself.

Now, more than a year later when reading back, I see that I really walked through this point and changed myself within. I am not deliberately ignoring points anymore by going into my mind. I am not saying that I am aware all the time, that is still a process that I am walking. But I see that within the point of ignorance of my responsibility in a certain moment I have seen what I did wrong, I faced myself within, I have written it out, walked through the experiences coming up within myself, forgiven myself, written the corrective statements and most important, made the absolute decision to change in this point and from here, I changed.

I notice that when I am at a point of really seeing what I have accepted and allowed within myself, facing myself within the unacceptable and understanding what it contains, what system I am participating in, in/as the mind as distraction from myself and within this understanding / forgiving myself – from here the decision is absolute, it is enough and enough is enough and from here, I change in real time, immediately and it is simply not an option anymore to live out  the destructive pattern again. There are moments coming up where I have to push myself through and do things that I ‘do not prefer or like’ and there may be mistakes that I make and need to forgive and correct myself in and deeper dimensions can/will come up to investigate, but it is not an option to not doing it or to even consider to not doing what is needed to be done within this point.

And from here I become more quiet, more satisfied with myself. In this way I build in and as self-trust and from here I can take on the next point, and the next and the next. And this innitiate point is not an issue anymore, it is not a problem anymore but it is something that I decided to live and that I from here, live and integrate in what I live/how I live/who I am.

And this is very cool to notice. Not because ‘it is so cool and wonderful that I have changed‘ but because it is so cool that I have changed within/as this point, which contains that I am not living this destructive pattern/behaviour anymore where in I hurted myself and another as life.

Here I see the effectiveness of walking this process of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrections together with walking this application in real time moments and integrating this as a ‘way of living’ as what is best for all in/as life. It are the very painful moments where real shame comes up, where in I face myself and if I dare to look, to see myself, to experience the pain and shame, to forgive and to admit to myself that I did it badly wrong; these moments I have found as the turning-points to immediate, real change that will function as stepping-stones to walk on and to keep on walking and forgiving/changing myself while moving through the challenging times.

Here the words ‘change is possible’ become true as real for/as myself and from here I start ‘believing’ as seeing that change is possible, where it is not an assumed/accepted believe in/as the mind but a living proof in/as myself that I walk and integrate and after several time walking, I notice: ‘hey, I have changed within this point and I am living this change without it being a mountain in my head to look up to’.

So for this, I really recomment Desteni I process and walking this process for yourself together within a group of people as mutual support, as support for and as life to stand up for what is best for all. Which includes everyone and everything.

full_robot-virgins-together-aloneDownload this great song, it’s free. Let’s decide and learn to stand together alone.

Read: The Secret to Self-Realisation.

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Proces van zelfverandering:
http://desteniiprocess.com/courses
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com  GRATIS ONLINE CURSUS MET BUDDY (Ook in het Nederlands!)

Zelfeducatie free:
https://eqafe.com/free
www.desteni.org
De Kronieken van Jezus

Journey to Life – Reis naar Leven:
https://nl.gravatar.com/ingridschaefer1
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
Ingrid’s Desteni Witness Blog
Facebook:
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
https://www.facebook.com/groups/326696524041028/

The Secret to Self-Realisation:

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/02/day-311-secret-to-self-realisation.html

Proces van wereldverandering:
http://bigpolitiek.blogspot.nl/
http://livingincome.me/wiki/The_Living_Income_Guaranteed_Proposal
Facebook:
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The body-being-mind relationship – Timeline

Dag 583 – The body-being-mind relationship – Introduction

Dag 584 – The body-being-mind relationship – “I don’t care”

Dag 586 – The body-being-mind relationship – Wants and needs, the approach of food

Dag 589 – The body-being-mind relationship – The pain of allowance, within and without

Dag 590 – The body-being-mind relationship – Self-limitation

Dag 592 – The body-being-mind relationship – Sensitivity of the body to thoughts

Dag 594 – The body-being-mind relationship – The need for specifity on a physical level

Dag 596 – The body-being-mind relationship – Hope

Dag 602 – The body-being-mind relationship – Vegan or not?

Dag 607 – The mind-body relationship – When will I succeed?

Dag 610 – The body-being-mind relationship – Articulation and twinkling lips

dag 630 -The body-being-mind relationship – Physical effect of self-forgiveness

Dag 650 – The body-being-mind relationship – It’s a decision

Dag 654 – The body-being-mind relationship – Schussler Salts and Celloid Minerals

Dag 672 – My body-being-mind awareness speaking

Dag 675 – The body-being-mind relationship – Heaviness

Dag 676 – The body-being-mind relationship – Heaviness and emotional suppression

Dag 682 – The body-being-mind relationship – Some fears during the flu

Dag 695 – The body-being-mind relationship – The influence of memories

Dag 700 – The body-being-mind relationship – Embracing the physical as point of support

Dag 705 – The body-being-mind relationship – Who am I?

Set Life Free

Dag 672 – My mind-being-body awareness speaking

Dutch process-blogs in relation to the subject of mind-body, natural medicine and more are to be find here

Disclaimer:

These blogs do in no way contain a medical advise. With unclarity about a condition – physically or mentally – always contact a practioner/specialist/doctor in the related area to get the support you need and from here, see how you can additionally walk your own process to get to know and support yourself in relation to your own body and mind.

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Mogelijkheid tot wereldverandering met gelijke kansen voor ieder-een:
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Equal Life Foundation:
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Proces van zelfverandering:

www.desteniiprocess.com
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com  GRATIS ONLINE CURSUS MET BUDDY
Proces van relatie naar agreement:
www.desteniiprocess.com/courses/relationships
Zelfeducatie free:
www.eqafe.com/free
www.desteni.net
www.desteni.org
Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?:
http://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/02/13/dag-235-de-desteni-boodschap-wat-doen-we-ermee/
Zelfvergeving als Toegift aan jeZelf:
http://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/05/20/dag-299-zelfvergeving-als-toegift-aan-jezelf/

A moment with Bernard – standing absolute as support and example

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I was on the farm in oktober 2012. Two years ago now. I was sitting with Bernard at the main house at a table outside. He was supporting me with some things, I do not exactly remember what we started to talk about when sitting there. It was related to relationships and me saying that I would like to have a relationship/agreement. To mention here is that I just left a situation of living together with a male that at that monent did not work out and I was too much in reaction within myself to stay in it. So I was living alone again where in I created a situation for myself to really be with me, to see into myself and have the rest and time to do so. However, there was a great insecurity about ‘relationships’ within me and honestly I felt very ‘old’ while I was 39 at that moment. So Bernard took on this point with me with very simple suggestions that I did not expect. One of this was a suggestion about how to keep my hair, what suited with my face and another was some support about relaxing my face. (I didnot tell him that I was ‘feeling old’ however that was an experience existing within me). He told me that he looked younger at that moment than he did 10 years ago. So he tought me how to relax my jaw/jaw-bones by putting my tongue slightly against my upper palate. And so we were sitting there at the table while I was practising to relax my jaws and focussing on practising to put my tongue slightly agains my upper palate. We were sitting there mostly in silence for half an hour or something. I was very uncomfortable inside myself and all kind pf thoughts were running through my head, about for example him seeing how uncomfortable, how insecure I felt while sitting there. He did not once pay attention to such a thing, he was sitting there in silence with me, looking at the environment, breathing, once or twice remembering me to remember to put my tongue slightly against my upper palate.

This moment was determining for me within accepting this very deep experience of insecurity within me. I feared that he would ‘point it out’ or name it or something and he did not. Saying nothing about it and sitting there with me was all that I needed to walk through this moment. It was for me a ver vulnerable moment, although it may seem like ‘nothing to really bother about’. These words are part of a construct that I have stored within me as to ‘not bother about these apparent small things’ and to not ‘making things so difficult’ or to ‘do so difficult’ about seemingly unimportant details. Which was actually what I was struggling with within myself, as for me it was important but in/as the conscious mind and world, it seemed so unimportant and small and I had not learned to take myself serious in these small details while growing up and so, I learned myself to not take it serious, which was in conflict with me wanting to take myself serious, starting within the detail and seemingly small.

He took me serious and gave me something to focus on and let me be sitting with him within feeling very uncomfortable and insecure within myself. For me he was someone who I completely trusted in seeing ‘with me’. I realise now that this trust within one other being was at that moment in place of self-trust and it functions as a bridge to walk into self-trust. He probably must have seen my uncomfortability and insecurity, however he did not point any finger towards it and so, I could take it on from there within myself and learn to walk with and as myself within taking myself serious in the seemingly small details.

This is an example of how these very very small moments can function as a foundation to walk on from. For me it was important that he was a male and to walk this with a male, because my insecurity was more often towards males, especially males that ‘I looked up to’. To be clear, Bernard never wanted to look up to him but to stay equal with him and I knew that it was/is existing as an experience within me that I only really have walked through if I am standing one and equal towards, with and as myself as him as life. Also about this he never mentioned anything about it towards me. It would not have made sense – I knew it, I was standing equal in certain parts and for the rest it was clear for me that I would continue walking this process within myself no matter what, so it would have been something as ‘pointing out the obvious’ which would not make sense. It was all within that moment of not talking and sitting there with the focus on a practical, physical point which for me was an advise to work on and from here, build my self-trust that I will be able to walk a relationship/agreement some day if I want to if there is an opportunity to do so.

I still apply this suggestion of putting my tongue slightly against my upper palate and/to relax my jaw-bones. I notice that it supports me to breathe, to bring myself in breathing and more relaxing the body, where the focus gets of the thoughts.

This moment at the farm is an example of the responsibility that is laying within taking responsibility for the life of others. This very small moment could have been easily missed or interpretated differently which could have determined the length of process within me within such a vulnerable moment. In the end it is my own responsibility and I was and am very much aware of this, so my approach towards him was not one of ‘wanting him to do it for me’ or laying my responsibility at him. I go there, I open myself up, I receive what he and the others who are living at the farm, are giving to me and I walk on with it within myself. So if he would have act or said different and it would not have alligned within myself, I would have investigated this and taken responsibility for the point within myself as how I was used to do in any case of receiving support. However I have not once be misunderstood by Bernard which for me was of great support as that this is possible and it brought me a step forward. He was looking within me with me, which is so much different as ‘looking at me’ and he gave the suggestions to fill the lacks within me – lacks as the small essential things that I had missed within my life while growing up and that I had not yet been able to find somewhere else. He took my ‘wish’ for a relationship/agreement serious, which was something that I had never done myself as I did not understand several parts of it and was always mixed up about walking together and walking alone with regards to ‘standing alone’ and taking responsibility for and as myself and within this, confused within preferences towards certain types of males.

At the same time, I was aware that within walking a relationship/agreement I would be able to live my utmost potential within an area that was ‘new’ and beneficial for me. So actually my fear within this is related to not being able to walk my utmost potential, which gives another restriction and load towards a relationship/agreement which I firstly had to walk through and let go. The fear is about me, about not being able to let go of my preferences while at the same time, seeing that I am really motivated and able to walk what is needed as what is best. So within this I have been surprising myself many times  – and be surprised by others – by seeing how strong the preferences within and as the mind are and can be and how easily I (and others) can be distracted by this and before one knows, consequenses are created and opportunities are missed if I am not carefully walking with and as myself through this layers.

One being who is unconditionally standing can be determining for everyone of us until we stand in and as self-trust. And each being who stands in and as self-trust, can be this ‘one being’ for another being. Bernards absolute standing  – as an example in/as Life in a human physical body – is still present as a motivation within me me to push through the layers within me in difficult moments as if he is standing so absolute, then who am I to not do so. Until I stand in and as self-trust, in and as life. Within the realization that if I do not stand in and as my utmost potential, another may not stand too and that will be a hard thing to forgive myself for.

So the motivation to do so is not yet one and equal as myself in and as life as I am walking through the layers in/as the mind. We cannot do it alone. Join the group.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself absolute to walk as what is best for all, where in I see, realize and understand that this walking is a process that needs to be walked in/as the physical to become real and trustable in and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become nervous from my own experiences of fear within me as if ‘something very bad is happening sooner or later’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my own experience of fear and interpretation of it as if something bad is happening sooner or later.

When and as I see myself becoming nervous because of an experience of fear within myself, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I react to my own experience of fear, where in I see the fear related to experiences in/as memories of not being allowed to challenge a mind-pattern from myself and/as another where ‘sooner or later something bad will happen’ if I do so – something bad as someone becoming very angry at me.

I commit myself to stop, breathe and forgive myself for the energetic charges as fear for something bad happening where in I investigate what I am not standing equal to in/as my own mind as fear as judgement.

I commit myself to stop, forgive and correct myself within or the moments that I am speaking in knowledge and not standing as an example but more, asking another to do apply a principle that I am not standing absolute in and as.

I commit myself to practise patience and to become more and more aware of the unnoticed energetic patterns within me so that I can forgive and correct myself within before speaking or acting and so, prevent myself more and more from creating consequenses.

I commit myself to for now, stop creating consequenses by stopping myself from reacting on it when and as I do see them arise.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the male-ego as ‘wanting to suppress me as a female within my expression’ and from here, find the male-ego rediculous and not something to take seriously.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take the male-ego seriously but to directly want to debunk this pattern and so challenge it immensely in and as the female-ego as ‘I am right’.

When and as I see a slight experience within myself on the background of ‘laughing at the male-ego’ as finding it rediculousness, I stop and breathe.

I realize that whatever it is in/as the male-ego that is playing out, nothing/no-one likes to be laughed at.

I realize that I needed it to be taken seriously in very small points and so does probably another, as we all are trying to express ourselves within the limited conditions that we have learned to do so.

I commit myself to stop laughing at the male-ego as if it is something rediculous and to take someone serious within what one is stating/mentioning in/as a (male) ego-point coming up, within the realization that it might be an ego-point, however within this, the being is present as the being is transferred into the mind by living out the patterns in/as the mind and so, I commit myself to take the being serious within an ego-pattern coming up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to challenge the male ego by bringing forward a principle as what is best for all, first because I challenge the male ego simply because I am a female and secondly because I speak in and as a starting-point of inequality towards a male in general, in and as fear which leads to not taking the male-ego seriously.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take serious that what I fear and so, that what I judge in/as the mind and so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take myself serious in/as rhe mind and from here, being surprised by the patterns coming up.

When and as I see myself participating in fear of challenging the male-ego and/or en ego in general, I stop and breathe.

I realize that my starting-point is not equal in/as myself as a being in/as life and so, I need to check myself first on (surpressed or slightly present) energetic reactions before speaking.

I commit myself to first check myself on energetic reactions when and as I want to bring forward a principle as what is best for all and to name and forgive myself the experiences as a release of the connected energy and from here, see if I can bring forward a principle as what is best for all and how to bring this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look up to a male and within this, create a polarity within and as myself as fear as judgement to feel ‘better then’ as a compensation for this ‘looking up to’.

When and as I see myself going into an experience of fear, related to ‘looking up to a male’, I stop and breathe.

I commit myself to stop looking up to a male or anyone else and to breathe and see what it is in that moment that ‘I look up to’ and why, where in I can see how to stand equal to this and how to bring it back to myself in and as a skill.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to point out the obvious certain times in and as an energetic reaction within myself which gives another and/as myself the opportunity to not take serious what I bring forward as a principle as what is best for all.

When and as I see myself pointing out the obvious certain times because I am in and as an energetic reaction, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I diminish the principle that I bring forward and within this, diminish myself by speaking in and as energy.

I commit myself to stop pointing out the obvious in and as an energetic reaction, to stop myself from speaking over and over the same point and to walk out if possible, to first clear myself from the energy coming up and from here, to see what is possible as/and to bring forward a principle as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take serious the mind-patterns that are so obvious that I do not understand that they come up so many times and that it is not be seen, instead of realizing, seeing and understanding that it are more automated reactions in which we put a veil on the pattern itself through which our self-responsibility becomes invisible.

When and as I see myself reacting to the thought that I do not understand that a mind-pattern comes up so many times, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I react to my own thought and so, I am in judgement instead of forgiveness as understanding.

I realize that in certain situations, in/as the mind I see understanding as a ‘diminishing’ of myself as if I ‘stand under it’ and so, I keep myself away from understanding as forgiveness as I do not like the related experience of diminishing.

I realize that this must be some related experience for another too, seemingly even more for the male-ego which might make it harder to go into understanding as forgiveness and self-forgiveness as self-understanding.

I commit myself to stop myself from participating in a thought that I do not understand something and to directly see what it is that I stand not equal to and forgive myself for this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take myself serious in/as life in the small and detailed moments and points as how life shows itself and from here, allow myself to be ridiculoused by myself and/as another in/as the mind.

When and as I see myself tending to reject myself in/as a principle as what is best for all in/as life, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I am not yet standing equal to and as this principle and so, my approach is (partly) in/as the mind in knowledge and information and so, I am not ready to share this as a living example.

I commit myself to stop rejecting myself in a point of what is best for all in/as life that I reject myself in and to investigate, forgive and correct myself until I do no longer reject myself in and as this principle.

I commit myself to walk in self-honesty with and as myself in seeing what I am standing equal to and what not and to share what I have walked for and as myself.

A process to be walked and to be continued.

Uil forgive

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Mogelijkheid tot wereldverandering met gelijke kansen voor ieder-een:
Leefbaar Inkomen Gegarandeerd:
https://www.facebook.com/BasisinkomenGegarandeerdDoorEqualLifeFoundation
Equal Life Foundation:
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Proces van zelfverandering:

www.desteniiprocess.com
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com  GRATIS ONLINE CURSUS MET BUDDY
Proces van relatie naar agreement:
www.desteniiprocess.com/courses/relationships
Zelfeducatie free:
www.eqafe.com/free
www.desteni.net
www.desteni.org
Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?:
http://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/02/13/dag-235-de-desteni-boodschap-wat-doen-we-ermee/
Zelfvergeving als Toegift aan jeZelf:
http://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/05/20/dag-299-zelfvergeving-als-toegift-aan-jezelf/

 

Onbegrip van relaties en de slang die in zijn staart bijt

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Een punt wat ik zolang als ik me herinner verkeerd heb begrepen is het punt van een relatie aangaan met een man. Ik kon maar niet op één lijn komen met het uitgangspunt van waarom ik een relatie aan zou gaan, ik raakte steeds opnieuw verstrikt in de ervaring van ‘vervulling’ en zien dat dit niet is waar een relatie voor is, en hierin de beslissing om het steeds opnieuw ‘dan maar alleen te doen’. Hier omheen heb ik een heleboel lagen van onbegrip en emotionele ervaringen gecreëerd in het steeds opnieuw proberen en weer stoppen van een relatie, door mij of door de ander, hoe dan ook, een stoppen van de relatie in plaats van een doorzetten en voortzetten. Hierin heb ik het punt gemist dat een relatie/overeenkomst er kan zijn om mezelf te ondersteunen. Ik kan het gebruiken als punt van motivatie om op te staan in en als mijn uiterste potentieel en ik kan, mag mezelf toestaan om mezelf te ondersteunen met de aanwezigheid van een ander. Niet omdat het ‘de enige manier is’ – als het er niet is – ik kan mezelf ondersteunen. Echter ik had het omgedraaid dat het er niet mag zijn omdat ik het niet als punt van vervulling wil laten bestaan en hierin ontzeg ik mezelf het punt van ondersteuning. Ondersteuning in het mezelf zien, het verantwoordelijkheid nemen voor mezelf in de reacties die opkomen, in het terughalen hiervan naar mezelf toe in plaats van de reacties als gedachten, gevoelens en emoties te projecteren en/of uit te leven op een ander. Ondersteuning in de motivatie om echt alles in mezelf op te pakken en in te zien, op te lossen door mezelf te vergeven.

Hierin ervaar ik nog een angst dat ik dit niet zou doen als een ander er niet zou zijn. En doordat ik steeds deze angst ervaar, ben ik steeds opnieuw niet werkelijk een relatie aangegaan en vond ik steeds opnieuw dat ik ‘deze angst zelf op moest lossen’, alleen. Dit kan echter ook juist binnen een relatie als overeenstemming in en als een overeenkomst met mezelf, dat ik mezelf ondersteun in het nemen van verantwoordelijkheid voor en als mezelf en hier vandaan sta als punt van ondersteuning voor de partner in dit principe van zelfverantwoordelijkheid. Dus feitelijk heb ik mijn angst gebruikt om iets ‘niet aan te gaan’ en zo de relatie met mezelf niet aan te gaan in en als een geloof dat ik niet met een ander mag zijn zolang deze angst in mij bestaat. Zo creëer ik een isolatie in en als mezelf van angst en ‘niet mogen’ welke resulteert in een mezelf niet onder ogen zien en dus geen volledige verantwoordelijkheid hoeven/willen nemen voor en als mezelf.

Deze isolatie manifesteert zich in en als mijn fysiek, in een tegenhouden, een afknijpen van de adem en/als expressie binnenin mezelf welke bij mij fysiek tot uitdrukking komt in een vasthouden van de ontlasting. Ik ben in conflict hierin wat ik fysiek heb gemanifesteerd waarin constant op de achtergrond een onbegrip aanwezig is in en als mezelf en hier omheen bouw ik enorm veel spanning op en vergroot ik het conflict binnenin mezelf in relatie tot mijn eigen fysiek.

Als zelfvergeving zelfbegrip inhoudt, zijn er in onbegrip, punten aanwezig die ik niet vergeven heb in en als mezelf en door het niet vergeven van en als mezelf, kom ik niet tot het begrip van en als mezelf en door het onbegrip in en als mezelf maak ik het onmogelijk om mezelf te vergeven aangezien ik mezelf niet volledig kan vergeven zolang ik mezelf niet volledig begrijp.

De slang bijt in zijn staart en draait kringetjes.

(De serie loopt door tot Day 307)
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Een relatie als overeenstemming en overeenkomst in en als het begrip van en als zelfondersteuning.

De zelfvergevingen spreek ik hardop uit terwijl ik de plekken in mijn lijf onderzoek waarin ik vasthoud en het conflict fysiek gemanifesteerd heb. Als ik werkelijk in mezelf zie en mezelf vergeef komen er emoties vrij en ervaar ik hoe de energie als lading afneemt van de ‘aangedane’ plek in mijn lichaam.

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My Declaration of Principle – Mijn verklaring van Principes

The Desteni of Living – De Bestemming van Leven

walking aloneThe following Principles give me focus and direction to stand alone without fear in equal respect for and engagement with All Life.

De volgende doelstellingen geven me focus en richting om alleen te staan zonder angst in gelijk respect voor en verbintenis met Al het Leven.

I endeavour to live the following Principles and I commit myself to give this all my effort:

Ik streef ernaar om te leven volgens deze Principes en ik stel mezelf ten doel me hiervoor volledig in te zetten:

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1. Realising and living my utmost potential

1. Het realiseren en leven van mijn uiterste potentieel.

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2. Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

2. Leven volgens het principe van wat het beste is voor alles en iedereen – dat mij leidt in gedachten, woorden en daden om altijd op iedere manier problemen te adresseren tot een uitkomst die het beste is voor alles en iedereen.

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3. Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

3. Leven volgens het principe van zelfoprechtheid – om ervoor in te staan dat ik zuiver ben in gedachten, woorden en daden: zodat mijn binnen- en buitenwereld één en gelijk zijn. Wie ik ben vanbinnen is wie ik ben vanbuiten en omgekeerd.

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4. Self Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the action of realising I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

4. Zelfpurificatie door Schrijven, Zelfvergeving en Zelftoepassing – de daad van het realiseren dat ik verantwoordelijk ben voor mijn eigen gedachten, woorden en daden, om mijzelf mijn misdaden te vergeven en mijzelf te veranderen zodat ik ervoor insta dat ik verantwoordelijkheid neem voor wie, wat en hoe ik ben en hierdoor te weten dat ik mezelf kan vertrouwen om altijd eerlijk te zijn met mezelf en dus met anderen.

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5. Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realising only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others

5. Leven volgens het principe van Zelfverantwoordelijkheid – waarin ik mij realiseer dat alleen ik verantwoordelijk ben voor wat ik accepteer en toesta binnenin mij, mijn relaties en mijn buitenwereld en dus met deze verantwoordelijkheid: heb alleen ik het gezag en de mogelijkheid om datgene te veranderen waarvan ik zie dat het compromitteert wie ik ben, wat ik leef en hoe dit anderen beïnvloedt.

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6. Realising that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well

6. Realiseren dat wie ik ben in gedachten, woorden en daden niet alleen invloed heeft op mijzelf – maar evengoed op anderen en dus met Zelfverantwoordelijkheid in gedachten, gevoelens en emoties – neem ik verantwoordelijkheid voor mijzelf en dus mijn relaties om Zelfgewaar te zijn in ieder moment en op zo’n manier te leven dat het ’t beste is voor mij en dus ook voor anderen.

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7. Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others

7. Leven volgens het Het Principe van Zelfgewaarzijn  – het gewaar zijn, zien, herkennen van mijn eigen gedachten en geest, het zelfoprecht zijn welke zich uitstrekt tot waar ik verantwoordelijkheid kan nemen voor als ik zie dat mijn gedachten / Geest niet zijn / is wat het beste is voor mij / anderen en het tot doel stellen om onmiddellijk verantwoordelijkheid te nemen en te veranderen voor mijzelf en dus voor anderen.

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8. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own

8. Met het nemen van verantwoordelijkheid voor mijzelf, het gewaar worden van mijzelf – het nemen van verantwoordelijkheid en het gewaar worden van anderen in mijn leven, om hen te assisteren en ondersteunen zoals ik mijzelf assisteer en ondersteun – om te geven zoals ik zou willen ontvangen en om elke dag het extra beetje te doen om te zien waar ik kan bijdragen aan het leven van anderen en dus aan mijn eigen leven.

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9. Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all and so best for me

9. Leven volgens het principe van zelfvertrouwen – als ik mijzelf ten doel stel om constant te blijven in mijn leven van zelfoprechtheid, zelfverantwoordelijkheid en zelfgewaarzijn, sta ik als een onwankelbaar vertrouwen zodat ik altijd op iedere manier weet wie ik ben, wat ik ook onder ogen zie en dat ik hierin weet, als bewezen in de standvastigheid van mijn leven dat ik altijd zal eren en staan bij wat het beste is voor alles en iedereen en dus het beste voor mij.

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10. Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what is means to LIVE

10. Het Zichtbaar maken van Liefde – door zelf niets minder te accepteren / toe te staan dan mijn uiterste potentiëel, om hen lief te hebben zoals ik mijzelf liefde heb laten zien door mijzelf mijn uiterste potentiëeel te geven, het beste leven / de beste levende ervaring en om anderen te laten zien zoals ik mijzelf heb laten zien wat het betekent om te LEVEN.

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11. No one can save you, save yourself – the realisation that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

11. Niemand kan jou redden, redt jezelf – de realisatie dat het gereedschap en de principes van Desteni de leidraad zijn, maar dat ik zelf het pad moet bewandelen. We zijn hier om elkaar te assisteren en ondersteunen in dit proces van Bewustzijn naar Gewaarzijn / LEVEN en wat het betekent om te leven – maar het proces zelf, waar je alleen bent met jezelf in jouw eigen Geest: wordt alleen gewandeld.

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12. Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I realise I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realisation that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today

12. Niet wachten voor iets of iemand om verantwoordelijkheid te nemen voor mij en deze wereld – maar dat ik mij realiseer dat ik gecreëerd heb wie en hoe ik ben in dit moment, daarom heb ik de verantwoordelijkheid om te veranderen wie en hoe ik ben en dus de realisatie dat wij als een collectief deze wereld gecreëerd hebben als hoe en wat het is vandaag de dag en dus is het de verantwoordelijkheid van het collectief om te veranderen hoe en wat de wereld vandaag de dag is.

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13. Honouring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves

13. Het leven eren in elk persoon, dier – alles van het grote tot het kleine van de aarde, opdat we ons gewaarzijn en onze verantwoordelijkheid uitbreiden om het best mogelijke leven te creëren voor iedereen en alles en dus onszelf.

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14. Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

14. Relaties als Overeenstemming: individuen die samenkomen en een overeenstemming gebruiken als een platform om één-op-één uit te breiden, groeien en ontwikkelen als individuen in het leven en het levensonderhoud om elkaar onvoorwaardelijk te ondersteunen / assisteren om hun uiterste potentiëel te bereiken waar de overeenstemming een samenkomen is van individuen die begrijpen wat het betekent om te staan als gelijken en te staan als één.

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15. Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.

15. Seks als Zelfexpressie – waar seks een verenigde expressie is tussen individuen in eer, respect, overweging en achting van elkaar als gelijken, twee fysieke lichamen verenigd in gelijkheid en eenheid – een samenkomen van twee gelijken als fysiek één.

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16. Realising that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come

16. Realiseren dat bij de hoedanigheid van mijn aanwezigheid in deze wereld – mijn verantwoordelijkheid zich niet alleen uitstrekt tot mijn eigen Geest / mijn eigen leven, maar tot de ‘geesten’ en levens van alles en iedereen van deze aarde en dus is het mijn doelstelling om dit gewaarzijn uit te breiden tot de gehele mensheid om samen te werken en samen te leven om deze wereld tot een hemel op aarde te maken voor onszelf en de generaties die komen.

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17. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realise how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

17. Ik moet in mijn gedachten, woorden en daden – maar meest belangrijk in mijn daadwerkelijke leven, een levend voorbeeld worden voor anderen in mijn wereld die waarneembaar en zichtbaar is als het gaat om het potentiëel van een persoon om zichzelf te veranderen en zo de wereld te veranderen. Zodat meer mensen zich kunnen realiseren hoe we deze wereld kunnen veranderen, door verenigd te staan in onze zelfverandering binnen het principe als wat het beste is voor alles en iedereen om een hemel op aarde te brengen.

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18. I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world.

18. Ik ben de verandering die ik wil zien in mijzelf en in mijn wereld – een hemel op aarde brengen is het in het leven roepen, in het leven brengen van het LEVENDE VOORBEELD van een PRAKTISCHE HEMEL die gezien en gehoord kan worden in onze daden en woorden. We zijn de Levende Hemel die in creatie moet komen in deze levende wereld.

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19. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realising it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath

19. Door het purificeren van mijn gedachten, woorden en daden – wordt mijn innerlijke wereld mijn uiterlijke wereld, dus ik breng mijzelf als hemel op aarde in creatie, waarin ik me realiseer dat het niet voldoende is om ‘de verandering te zien / de verandering te zijn’ – om verandering WERKELIJKHEID te laten worden moet het een constant, consequent leven zijn van mij door de woorden die ik spreek en door de daden die ik leef die zichtbaar en waarneembaar zijn voor iedereen in ieder moment van ademhalen.

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20. Realising that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard – nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

20. Realiseren dat mijn fysieke lichaam mijn tempel is – mijn fysieke lichaam is het levende vlees door welke en in welke ik een hemel op aarde in het leven roep en op aarde zal creëren / manifesteren als mezelf in mijn woorden en daden en dus eer, respecteer en acht – verzorg en ondersteun ik mijn fysieke lichaam zoals ik mijzelf als gelijke zou verzorgen en ondersteunen: mijn lichaam ben ik.

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21. We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realise this, as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without

21. We zijn de verandering in onszelf en in deze wereld waarop we gewacht hebben: en dus stel ik mezelf ten doel om mezelf en mijn leven toe te wijden aan ieder-één als allen om dit te realiseren, omdat er niets zal veranderen als we niet veranderen in alles wat we zijn, vanbinnen en vanbuiten.

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22. The realisation that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

22. De realisatie dat voor mezelf, om in staat te zijn om mezelf te veranderen in gedachten, woorden en daden tot het meest effectieve levende wezen dat ik kan zijn en worden – zal ik eerst mezelf moeten kennen (‘to know thyself’) en dus stel ik mezelf ten doel om te onderzoeken, binnenin mij te zien en begrijpen hoe ik ben geworden wie ik ben vandaag de dag, om de weg voor mij voor te bereiden tot in de zelfcreactie van een verantwoordelijk, gewaar, zelfoprecht en betrouwbaar persoon voor mijzelf en dus voor anderen.

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23. The realisation that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth

23. De realisatie dat voor mij om in staat te zijn bij te dragen aan verandering in deze wereld – moet ik mezelf leren kennen (‘to know thyself’) als deze wereld and dus stel ik mezelf ten doel om de innerlijke en uiterlijke mechanismen van deze wereld te documenteren, onderzoeken en binnenin mij te zien en de systemen van vandaag aan te passen om het best mogelijke leven voor alles en iedereen op Aarde te presenteren.

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De bestemming van Leven – Tijdlijn van de Principes

In blogs to come through time I will expand on how I see, realise and understand each Principle and applied it and / or will apply practically in my daily life.

In blogs die komen gaan door de tijd heen zal ik uitbreiden op hoe ik elk Principe zie, realiseer en begrijp en hoe ik het praktisch toepas en / of wil toepassen in mijn dagelijks leven.

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Mogelijkheid tot wereldverandering met gelijke kansen voor ieder-een:
Leefbaar Inkomen Gegarandeerd:
https://www.facebook.com/BasisinkomenGegarandeerdDoorEqualLifeFoundation
Equal Life Foundation:
https://www.facebook.com/EqualLifeFoundation
Proces van zelfverandering:

www.desteniiprocess.com
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com  GRATIS ONLINE CURSUS MET BUDDY
Proces van relatie naar agreement:
www.desteniiprocess.com/courses/relationships
Zelfeducatie free:
www.eqafe.com/free
www.desteni.net
www.desteni.org
Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?:
http://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/02/13/dag-235-de-desteni-boodschap-wat-doen-we-ermee/
Zelfvergeving als Toegift aan jeZelf:
http://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/05/20/dag-299-zelfvergeving-als-toegift-aan-jezelf/

From Christianity to Desteni – How did I do that?

media_xl_1033183-bijbelWithin the Google Hangout about Christianity there was a question how I was able to step out of the Christianity boat and start walking within the principles Desteni stands for. On this I answered that I never really stepped into the Christianity boat but that I had made a shift from the ‘love of God’ towards the ‘love of soulmates’ or just an ultimate partnership with ‘The One’ as something ‘to reach out for’ within myself. Which is so, I did made that shift, so that was/is the greatest illusion for me to walk through. However, I found my answer incomplete. As the reason why it was easy for me to let go of what I found supportive within Christianity and to start walking with Desteni, is that within Desteni, the words of Jesus are involved and actually taken as a starting point. ‘Investigate all things and keep what is good – Do onto another as you would like to be done onto – Give as you would like to receive’.

‘Investigate All Things and Keep What is Good’, ‘Do onto Another as You would Like to be Done onto’, ‘Give as You would Like to Receive’ – See more at: http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/03/day-333-jesus-message-is-not-religious.html#sthash.lbn04T7U.dpuf

Within Christianity, the words of Jesus in general within the bible – not especially these ones mentioned above – were what was intriging me and within this, there was Forgiveness involved. The role of God as presented within this religion was something that caused some friction within me everytime these words were spoken and so, I never stepped “into Christianity” as I could not stand as and by everything that is presented within.

So, when Desteni came in – Sylvie found Desteni on the internet and started investigating everything and involved me within this and one of the first things that she mentioned was that the words of Jesus are in it – and because of ‘the words of Jesus’ integrated, it has not been a point of doubt with regards to what I have walked within Christianity, as finally the words of Jesus are used and implemented, investigated and lived in common sense. (Before this Sylvie and I were investigating how to be ‘disciples of Jesus’ in a more common sense way and Desteni is actually providing the tools to walk and implement the principle of equality and oneness in a practical way).

Because I have not been raised ‘as a Christian’ in  a direct way – indirectly we are all raised within a religion – and I had shifted my veil of illusion towards the ‘soul-love’ (which I will expand on sometime later), I have never allowed myself to accept Christianity as ‘the one’ religion – although it was the religion that I could find myself in the most if not applied in an absolute way – and I also did not create a resistance towards Christianity. As I said, the illusion that I did have allowed myself to accept, was the illusion of the soul as ‘who we are’ and within this I had kind of accepted the concept of soulmates, however there were also always some doubts about it, some unclarities, but I wanted it so badly and it was the only way for me to see any sense in relationships, so I accepted it more or less. I also interpreted the words of Jesus within a ‘feeling’ inside as ‘divine love’, so there did take place a separation as an interpretation from it in and as the mind to make me ‘feel good’. But I approached it in and as a self-investigation where in I myself was the reference. The problem here was that I was not a clear reference for and as myself, because, as everyone, I have separated myself in and as the mind which I did not really understood for what it is – for who I am and have become and so I kept on searching for answers.

The concept of forgiveness as how it is offered in a Christian approach, that I struggled with, as I did not understand how I could forgive another. I simply felt inside that I had not forgiven and so, I could not say and live these words.  However I understood that forgiveness is necessary as we cannot hold on to revenge. So then there is a problem as I did not have a practical way to apply and live this.

Within Desteni, the tool to work with is Self-Forgiveness. Well that is something that I immediately could accept and start working with, although it took me a while before I could really grasp the totality of it. And from self-forgiveness I can go to forgiveness, as understanding of self means understanding of others as self. (The difference between forgiveness and self-forgiveness has been discussed within the Google Hangout).

So, from Christianity – the words of Jesus as written in the bible and the concept of Forgiveness – towards Desteni – the words of Jesus expanded and explored in common sense and applied in practical living and brought back to self in and as Self-Forgiveness – well that is how it was clear for me to go from Christianity to Desteni without having conflict in this decision.

Within Desteni, the existence of Humanity and the role of God is explored and explained in detail for the first time in human existence without leaving information behind. So, if one is really interested and ready to face how we have existed as humanity – you will find everything in Desteni that was unclear within Christianity. As every so called Christian or other religion participant  has questions that are answered with ‘only God knows’. Some put them aside, some keep on asking, some turn their back on the religion, some accept a complete illusion – it are all ways to ‘deal’ with the lack of real information. This is what I always ‘bumped onto’, which I experienced within myself as ‘it is not complete, it is not making sense, it is not ‘whole’ in a way’. I have never experienced this within Desteni, as everything make sense. And – what I did have as a clear reference, was my own body and physical complaints which was the main reason for me to keep on searching and also here, I finally got answers and tools to really investigate and start to understand the influence of my own mind within this all.

Of course I have experienced and do experience resistance to let go of my own created illusions, to not want to face myself, to protect myself as who I have become. But I never have had this friction inside myself that their were no answers, that there was information kept away and things like that or that it doesn’t make sense.  There is total clarity, frankness and support; if one wants to look inside self. If one is not willing to investigate and see into self, everything will be interpreted as a polarity to keep the illusion of the mind alive and so, information will be turned around within ones own mind to protect itself. Until one find: ‘Oh my God, how could I have missed this’. As we have missed ourselves completely within existence.

What I have done in the beginning is to start with the information that makes sense and to not only focus on the things that cause resistance inside. I did take time for it, to walk through resistance, to see for myself if ‘there is really no other way’. I accepted the things that were provided to me and I did read it, although it was with resistance and fear of ‘loosing another illusion’. Untill I decided, okay, if this all make sense, then I should investigate everything. As I cannot keep on walking with one foot in and one foot out and only take what ‘suits’ me. It’s all or nothing in a way. And from here, things did change as this decision will support oneself to open up, to really see, listen and investigate and bring the resistance back to self. And interesting enough, a part of the resistance will disappear within this decision itself. For the rest one will during walking realize that there is no other choice than ‘bringing it back to self’, as no one else will make the change for us.

Is this than a brainwashing, just as how a Christian accepts God in a way? As how I have accepted ‘the Soul’ in a way as a shift from god to the soul as ‘god’? I can say, No, it’s not. It is a decision to STOP the brainwashing and illusion and to start taking self-responsibility for it, as it, within it. But this is what one can only walk and proove for and as oneself. As our own walking, will be our own proove. Change willl not take place over one night.

So from ‘Christianity to Desteni’ – I would say, it is a practical way of walking as how Christianity is ment to be within the words of Jesus and we do not follow Jesus, but we follow his words within a practical application, in and as ourselves, as what is best for all Life.

How does that sound?

To investigate:

What is the relationship between Jesus and ‘Life’?  (Interview)

Day 333 – The Jesus Message is Not a Religious Message

Dag 461: Sceptics Failed the Jesus Message

Jesus – I’m not comming on a cloud

Jesus – The forgiveness of Jesus

Jesus – The Guidelines of Forgiveness Part 1

Jesus – Responsibility

Mother Teresa’s story: The life of the saint Part 1

Mother Teresa: My perspective on purity

Winged – The Chronicles of Jesus

Dutch:

Jezus (Overzicht artikelen)

De Kronieken van Jezus

Jesus EQUALITY for ALL DESTENI(Reis van ziel naar leven)

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Mogelijkheid tot wereldverandering met gelijke kansen voor ieder-een:
Leefbaar Inkomen Gegarandeerd:
https://www.facebook.com/BasisinkomenGegarandeerdDoorEqualLifeFoundation
Equal Life Foundation:
https://www.facebook.com/EqualLifeFoundation
Proces van zelfverandering:

www.desteniiprocess.com
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com  GRATIS ONLINE CURSUS MET BUDDY
Proces van relatie naar agreement:
www.desteniiprocess.com/courses/relationships
Zelfeducatie free:
www.eqafe.com/free
www.desteni.net
www.desteni.org
Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?:
http://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/02/13/dag-235-de-desteni-boodschap-wat-doen-we-ermee/
Zelfvergeving als Toegift aan jeZelf:
http://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/05/20/dag-299-zelfvergeving-als-toegift-aan-jezelf/

 

 

To give it my all – How the animals teach me what real support is

In december Witneus the female rabbit became suddenly very ill, pneumonia, I wrote about it during that days. Here I write in an overview how this intensive support of her supported myself to get the best out of me.

For a few days just before she became clearly ill, she walked into the house more often and wanted to sit in the house for a longer time. I allowed her to do this, however sometimes I pushed her a little to go back outside again – the rabbits lived outside during that days and I was not sure how staying inside the house for hours should influence the thickness of their pelt. So, here I missed a sign of her and did not investigate why she wanted to stay inside the house for longer. Rabbits are prey-animals and they do not show when they are ill and when they show, the illness is often already present for a longer time. However they do give some signs when we really are aware and this was a sign from her that I did not take seriously.

The day that I noticed there was really something wrong was when she was sitting with her nose in the air. I have had a rabbit in the past who was sitting with her nose in the air for many days but for the rest being normally active, eating normally, so I did not have a clue that there was something going on with her. Until she was suddenly one day that ill that it was too late to do anything; pneumonia as I heard at the vet. However, I learned this that time and saw it immediately now when the nose was in the air. I also had to go to work that day and did not know what to do in the short time before work. I called my collegue and discussed; he would try to find someone to replace me (I often work alone in a healthstore) and I said I would be a little late. She sat down in her hutch outside, in the nightcabine which is more closed and warmer. I moved on to work. On the way to work I started seeing what was bothering me, which was the point that I was not clear on where to housevest her and the malerabbit (they lived together outside the house and I have a pretty small room inside the house where also another quinea-pig was living). I saw that I would take her in the house and could leave Casper – the male rabbit – outside. It seems strange that I could not see this clearly immediately however this is how the mind works and what I am already walking for years while taking care of the animals, that somewhere in the practical care-taking when they become ill I loose sight, get stuck and do not see a practical solution. Actually it is a little bit of an apathic reaction which is not cool, as with these small animals, you have to be fast and take action immediately otherwise it can be too late.

So, I had my solution, in the afternoon a collegue could replace me and I could go home. At home I immediately took her into the house and knew I had to go to the vet. It was friday night and the last consulting-hour before the weekend so I had to catch this one. I called my parents to drive but one was out with the car so it was not possible to bring me. I have another option to go by bus and walk 2x 10 minutes which is less comfortable (for the animal and me as well) but anyhow pretty well doable. Here again I saw myself linger, thinking about asking the neighbour or taking the bus and saw, okay, I have to push myself and I have to do it fast otherwise I am too late for the bus and the consultinghour. So I did, I pushed myself through this lingering, took her in a basket and went to the bus. At the vet, they confirmed that it was pneumonia, gave her anti-biotica and explained me that pneumonia with rabbits is a risk for their health as they produce very thick mucus in the lungs that is not easily going away and so, the chances to survive are not so large, however there are rabbits who make it. They also told me that she was quite sick already. I had seen this too, however I also knew her al the years before and she had never been sick and been in good physical condition and very enthousiastic to live and also, the symptoms were not that long present so, there was a chance she could make it.

I went home, left her in the small basket, put a warm-water bottle with her in the basket and some green-food for if she was able to eat something. And so we passed through the night. The days after this, she had a lot of difficulties with breathing, sat with her nose in the air all day and a little bit standing up, with her forelegs against the warm water bottle that I put down their so that her breast would be a little bit warm. She could barely eat but she had to. So I gave her fluidfood with vessels especially for sick rabbits. Besides this I went outside and took everything that I could find that she might like and easliy eat, like dandelion, plantain, clover, yarrow, chickweed and some grass. It was winter but very soft weather so I was lucky as there was still some green findable. She did not eat by herself but when I hold it before her consistently she would take some eveytime and actually even made some funny jokes with this, as taking it out my hand and put it away on the ground for example when she did not want it anymore, and when I hold on tight, she could not take it away but instead the leave teared apart and she had again some food in her mouth which she chew on. Until she showed me that she really had enough.

She lost weight of course and we found a rithm of fluid food 2x a day and 1x a day anti-biotic and 1x a herbal conbination with colloidal silverwater and a drop of vitamin D to reduce the mucus and to support her lungs and immunesystem. I did this all together for 4-5 weeks very intensively, I slept down in the same room with her (I have a sleeping-couch there) and only went out longer for work. And within this period, I learned the most important point: to give it my all. I knew and noticed that I had to give it my all to pull her through this and that I had to do every little thing that I saw as important for her, very small things as getting the food she would like most, giving it to her often, checking at her, being consistent in the medicines, actually being totally here for her.

I have seen Bernard doing this at the farm and heared from others how he applied this, giving his all in very small things, seemingly points that looked as ‘not so important’ or even out of proportion. This is what I within my mind, allowed to take over in the past while taking care for the small animals, as actually I had the tendency to give it my all but had some thoughts and beliefs about this as ‘not suitable’ or ‘too much’ because it is ‘only a rabbit’. It was not how I consciously saw it myself but however, allowed myself this behaviour just because this is the common approach of taking care of animals. So actually I did not really stand up for them as myself. I also had a belief during that days, that dying is something maybe even better than living, which is actually a point of religious brainwashing and so I had a tendency to let them go more easily instead of investigating everything completely before doing so. So it was more about ‘who I am within’ than actually neglecting the caretaking that was not alligned within myself with what is best for all. This combined with the lingering and apathic behaviour of myself when I needed to take action immediately and coming up with practical solutions and also very important or even the most important point of influence, not having a car and not having so much money and the vet costs always a lot of money, again combined with living alone and grown up within an experience of having to decide a lot of things by myself; well all this points together I faced while taking care of the animals. And everytime a small animal became sick I could pick up the point I learned from an animal in the past and a new point came up that I had to learn and integrate. So, with Witneus, she was the first who I have given my all – and people who knew me before would say, but you always did this isn’t it? You are always so very carefull with the small animals. Just to give you an idea of what ‘giving my all’ entails; the ‘being carefull’ as I was before, is not enough. It is not the same as giving my all and letterly pull the animal through with everything I have where instead of this, somehow and somewhere, I let them go and so actually I let them down. In very small points which are easily to be excused. But every excuse is one excuse too much. So, there were no excused in this period with Witneus and I just took on everything I saw that needed to be done and as long as was necessary until it’s done, walking it day by day without knowing how long this would take and without knowing if she would make it. As this was not the most important thing, it was important how we walked through and who I am within.

Well, she did make it. After the period with anti-biotic, she had still difficulties with breathing and so with eating, as eating and sitting with her nose in the air to breathe at the same time, is very difficult. So, discussing this with the vet again. They said that the anti-biotics is done, the bacteria is gone so she needs something for the alveolus, for the lungs, to get more air. Something similar as they give to people who have asthma and then for animals. So she got that, and almost the same day it became better. Within a few days she ate by herself, and she eated all day because she was actually very hungry and had to get some weight. I gave her this medicin 2x a day and also the herbs and some colloidal silverwater and vitamin D for 3 weeks and she became stronger and recovered within this period. after this I went back to 1 time a day, and again after some weeks 1 time a day I started to half the dose of the herbal combination and staying with 1 time a day the medicine for the alveolus. With this I will move on some weeks and then probably stop the herbs and go on regurly with the medicin for the alveolus as this is recommended by the vet, based on experience with other animals that when stopping for a longer period they often start getting difficulties with breathing again.

The point of not really be aware of the signs before they become ill, this came back with the male rabbit who died last week. I wrote about this also. The short period of decisionmaking and support in passing away went well as I learned to discuss these kind of things with the vet and if necessary with someone who is able to see with me. However the point of this small signs before becoming ill I had not actively responded to, I noticed it again but did not respond, I did not pick it up and so, after Casper had passed away, I saw this point still being here and interfearing with my decisionmaking and taking action within the moment of illness. So this point I have to correct in writing and then walk again in real time when the moment is here. Actually I saw that I did not consider myself in this, in what I actually wanted as being some more closer with the animal for a while – meaning inside the house, some hugging, but again, of not knowing how to do this practicle I did not take this seriously and so I actually am not taking seriously myself within this point, which is harming myself as another living being. And because of staying in this ‘not knowing how’, I do not start investigating it and so I do not even give myself a chance to find a solution that is practical and best for all including me. So this is what I am moving on with. As this point is making it more difficult, when and as an animal (or human) dies, as I have seen that after this passing away of another living being who we lived close with, the points come up where we did not give it our all and so we feel sadness, which is actually a feeling of regret of missing out on moments of opportunity to share, to be intimate from a starting-point of self-intimicy. The animals did not miss these moments, it are we as human who miss them because we miss ourselves and we need to walk a process to become one and equal with and as ourselves. And if we do not do so, we will face this within and as ourselves when and as we die ourselves.

Actually what I describe here in very small points, is what is going on in the world on a very large scale. From the small to the big, it is the same point and only in the small, within the situation that we are living in and being able to direct, the changes will start taking place, if we are willing to see and to take ourselves seriously within this. Life is showing itself in very very small points, it is vulnerable and strong at the same time and this is what we easily and on a daily base, walk over and ignore. So we ignore the being vulnarable and we miss the being strong within this. And as long as we ignore, we do not have to pick it up, we do not have to face ourselves as being vulnarable and so we do not have to change ourselves and, we will never become one and equal as strength as life as our full potential. So we see, there is something wrong, but we are not really aware of it and we do not dare to really see into this as we do not yet know the solution and so, decide to ignore. Which leads to a survivalmode where in we act and pretend being ‘strong’ but which is actually weakening ourselves and life as a whole, which is quite visible in the world today.

Ignorance is a decision although it seems as we do it ‘automatically’ but actually, every time we ignore something it is a decision, in every moment. So to stop the ignorance, this is a decision too. First it is to stop the ignorance and within this, we give ourselves a chance to look, to see, to ‘not know how to do this’, to forgive ourselves for what we see and what we do not know yet, for what we have allowed to exist within and as ourselves, to investigate and discuss a solution, to correct ourselves and make a new script as an ability to change and to eventually, actually change in physical reality as the final proof to and as ourselves that we have walked a process to selfchange, from ignorance, apathie and an experience of powerlessness towards consideration, self-movement and practical solutions.

We will not get proof on forehand that it ‘will work’ as the only proof possible, is walking it for and as self. We will become the living proof or we will not see any proof at all. So waiting for a proof before starting, it’s not gonna work.

Starting within the small, starting to take self as life seriously as within this, one will start taking life seriously in/as everyone.

So does this mean that ‘I am ready’ now? That I have learned to ‘give it my all’ in every moment? No. I have learned this within this one point. Where in it became very clear to me how and where I am actually not doing this which is in many other points. This is a process to walk as the resistance to do this has been integrated in many ways within myself and my physical body so it requires walking a process day by day, consistently and continiously, to deprogram myself within this and become the living proof of myself in and as my full potential.

Will you walk with me, with us?

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Thanks (below two pictures from Casper and Witneus in the snow some years ago)

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Casper and Witneus januari 2014

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